Greater love hath no man than this . . .

"Greater love hath no man than this; that a man lay down his life for a friend." My nights have become sleepless. I'm unable to dismiss the thoughts that race through my mind so I can get the rest I used to need. Being a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (a Mormon) puts a different lens on matters of the world. As I contemplate Steve's departure, I cannot deny that my testimony has been heightened. Scriptures and songs come to mind and quite often, I weep. Tears of love? Tears of truth? Tears of fear? Yes, tears of all description. I love Steve as I love my own sons. There is no variance between him, and Bryan, Kelly and Gus. My prayers for the safety of our soldiers have become more meaningful - more personal. The unspeakable is possible with Steve's deployment. I think of the song, "Consider the lillies of the field." If God is aware of the lillies of the field, how much more so is he aware of Steve at this time; and his wife and children. I think of the scripture, "Be still and know that I am God." This is harder to practice in times of trial but so vital. I think of the song, "I Know tht My Redeemer Lives - He lives to hear my souls complaint. He lives to comfort me when faint. He lives to calm my troubled heart. He lives all blessings to impart." There are so many more that come to my mind, and I am comforted. Scriptures and music have become more meaningful of late. And strength is drawn from them. A fortified testimony of Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ? Absolutely. I know that they live. They know every son and daughter. They know the righteous desires of our heart and they do bless us. I know beyond any doubt that the Gospel of Jesus Christ is true and I am grateful for this knowledge, as I rely on it heavily each day.

To those who have given Jodie support, I thank you deeply and sincerely. Her brothers and sisters have expressed their love and care, and I declare my love and thankfulness to them. To my dear friends who have uttered words of encouragement "mom to mom," I express my love to them. I am blessed beyond words. To my sister, Carolyn, "Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these, ye have done it unto me." And to my dear Steve, Vaya con dios. I love you!!